I feel like all my activities have been boiled down to passing the time rather than enjoyment. I think the last time I enjoyed something was 5 years ago. I played League of Legends with friends. When adult responsibilities come in, I think things like yearning to game and having fun dissipates. I don’t know when I will feel a sense of purpose and meaning but I know there is hope to keep searching.
Becoming a Lab Scientist
Writing my experience as a student majoring CLS
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I have a month and a half remaining until my school starts. Anxiety has been rising ever since. I ask ChatGPT for advice and tools on how to be a well prepared student. It was okay in providing help.
My routine has been down the slumps. I need to get back to sleeping early and waking up early in the morning. I also need to go back to self-care routine. Just showering everyday before going outside should help me with school.
My habits with studying needs to be improved. I have notes from my previous school to study with. I can put in a two hours block dedicated to studying.
I think I am mentally and emotionally ready for school. I still need improvements on my daily routine and study habits. I know everything is going to be fine at the end of the day.
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As a 27 year old man, I do get insecure from time to time. I see my friends and classmates have their dream jobs to earn their desired salary for living. I see them getting romantic partners and even getting married with their partners. They have a car, a house, and a family to live with together.
I know it’s not something to beat myself up for not getting my part yet. But life is like a race. There is a finished line at the end of the road that everyone has to cross. However, everyone goes at their own pace. Some can go faster than others. Some can be driving slow but steady. Meanwhile, there can be a malfunctioned car that has stopped racing for some time and then started functioning to try racing again.My life can be described as that when I faced my first failure in college. I try to not dwell on it too much, but I became depressed and down as I was not passing my classes. I have to transfer to another college because I was dismissed from my program at my previous school. Now Mercy University has given me an opportunity to try pursuing my career once again. I was given another chance – a chance to become a Clinical Laboratory Scientist again.
Meanwhile my batch-mates have started going to their jobs, I am going to focus on my studies and try to put on my best performance to be successful at my academic journey. It is not going to be easy but my life has been stagnant for some time and it’s time for me to get my act up and get my life back together.
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Unfinished version of my landscape painting As I reflect my day, I seem to realize I don’t finish projects to completion. I stop playing this game called Dragon Quest 11. I have made a considerable amount of progress to the game but I am unable to finish it. I am painting a landscape art through an app Procreate but I am still halfway through finishing it. There are many video games I have played but they ended up incomplete. The idea that I am never going to get better at my job makes me feel like I should stop. Thoughts creeping in telling me “I am average” and “this is pointless” and the never ending discouragement just degrades me to shy away from the things that I love doing. This problem seems like a reality check to me as the school semester draws in closer. Committing myself to studying is a battle I am going face soon. I need courage and confidence in my studying if I want to pass my exams and even aim for a higher grade. I know I am not alone in this that everyone has their mental battles in their lives. I want to share my anxieties and see if anyone has the same problems committing to relationships, work, jobs or other projects. Commitment is a skill that everyone should build up to grow themselves. It is not to be taken for granted. Anyone who commits should be respected for their effort, determination and dedication as they take their passion to the next level.
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I am in a period in my life where school is over and I am waiting for the next semester to begin. I used to play video games but now they don’t give me meaning and direction. The same goes to watching anime. Have I outgrown them? Perhaps. I am worried for my future, my career, and money to live on my own. I just don’t think playing games and watching anime is beneficial to my life right now. Journaling seems to be helping me reflect my day and myself. I tried digital art and vlogging. They seem to help me pass the time. They are fun little activities to do. I also tried walking outside. Taking a fresh breath of air once in while can be so helpful.
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Journaling is definitely a hobby I would recommend. It is pretty easy to get into. You can make your own rules as to how you want to write. Ideas on journal prompts can be easily obtained by one google search.
I was unsure how I was going to start my journaling project. But ever since I started it, I cannot stop journaling . I jotted down everything that comes into my mind. I organized my plans, dreams and goals. It was so calming when you just write your thoughts in place.
Journaling can be intimidating at first but once you get the gist of it. You can write out as many topics as you want.
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It is my first time sharing my writing to the public. Honestly, I am still unsure what I am going to write about. Most of my writings are about journaling. Even so, I am excited to embark on this journey to write while having fun doing so. Hopefully, anyone who passes by my blogs would be interested and entertained. I want to connect to anyone who struggles the same hardships as me. For those who are not in the same position as me you are welcome to read my experiences and thoughts as I go through life. Thank you for reading!
Becoming a Lab Scientist 